Again and Again

I felt it again this morning in church. That indescribable awareness of God's holiness versus my innate sinfulness. It's such a paradox. You would think that this awareness would be a terrible thing, but unfailingly, it is the purest joy I have ever known.

It's about grace. The real cost of it. Grace is cheap and worthless if we think we deserve it somehow. But when we understand the real cost of it, the fact that we could never do anything to even begin to earn it, then, and only then, do we have any understanding of how amazing grace is.

I'm not kidding when I say that I am sitting here and I can't even think of words to describe the infinite, incomprehensible, magnitude of grace.

But God gives it to us. And He doesn't just give us enough to get by, He lavishes it on us. He slathers thick, dense layers of grace all over our wounds and scars. He picks us up from our heap and sends us soaring into the stars. He gives us a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.

And to add to what is already almost more than we can understand, He declares that He loves us. He calls us treasure and jewel, pearl and joy. Consider the unlikeliness of it. The mystery, the paradox... Oh, but relish it, delight in it, sing for joy and celebrate it.

Oh come all ye faithful, joyful and triumphant
Oh come ye, oh come ye, to Bethlehem.
Come and behold Him, born the king of angels
Oh come let us adore Him
Oh come let us adore Him
Oh come let us adore Him
Christ the Lord.

May we all adore him.

Romans 11:33

"O the depth of the riches and of the wisdom and the knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and His ways past finding out!"

I'm Chillin'

Yes, that is a corny title. Forgive me, I couldn't resist. I just want all of you to know that my refrigerator has been repaired.

I had a really interesting conversation with the repair man. I feel pretty sure that he is not a Christian, because I talked about God and the Bible several times and he never responded like you would think a fellow believer would. But he seemed interested in what we talked about. You just never know what a little seed might turn into.

Hills and Valleys

Deuteronomy 11:11-12

"but the land which you cross over to possess is a land of hills and valleys, which drink water from the rain of heaven, a land for which the LORD your God cares; the eyes of the LORD your God are always on it, from the beginning of the year to the very end of the year."

These verses struck me this morning. They are so beautiful. I stopped reading and spent some time just thinking about them, and how they can apply to my own walk with God.

Life in general, but especially the Christian life, can easily be characterized by hills and valleys. Some times we are sitting on top of the world, sailing smoothly through life. Things are happening nicely, and easily. And then suddenly, we may find ourselves in a valley.

But the rain of heaven falls in both the hills and the valleys. Hebrews 13:5 tells us that God will never leave us or forsake us. His "rain" will water us in the highs and the lows. If you think about it, the valley is where you will find pools of water, not up in the hilltops. Have you had an experience like that? You found yourself going through something really difficult, but God provided pools of water for you in the midst of your valley? I have. But, I'll be honest, and admit that I often didn't see the pools of water until I had passed all the way through the valley, climbed up onto the hilltop again, and then turned to gaze back down. And then, I was amazed at all the "water" down there!

Even more wonderful is the idea that our land (our walk with God), is a land for which the LORD our God cares, that His eyes are always on it, from the beginning of the year to the very end of the year. Personally, I love the idea that God's eyes are always on me. As a very immature Christian, this idea was pretty scary. I viewed it as, "God is watching all the really bad things I am doing, and He is going to condemn me for it."

I have done some pretty bad things. But I know that I have been washed as white as snow by the redeeming blood of Christ (Isaiah 1:18.) Now, the idea of God always watching me makes me feel really safe, and taken care of. I know that no matter what happens to me, God is watching, He knows, He gets it, He cares.

Don't miss that God's eyes are watching from the beginning of the year to the very end of the year. I looked up the Hebrew for "year." It does mean, quite literally, year. But it also means a year as a revolution of time. I take that to mean, from the beginning of the event to the end of the event. That event can be lots of different things. As in, from the beginning of my loss, until I recovered from that loss. Or, from the beginning of my struggle with that sin, until I was able to repent and accept forgiveness for that sin. And even, from the beginning of that ministry to the time I saw the first fruit from that ministry.

Another thing that the original Hebrew uncovers is that the word "end," as in "from the beginning of the year to the very end of the year" has as one of its alternate translations the word reward. Read it this way: from the beginning of the year to the very reward of the year. I can think of a few examples of this from my own life. Sometimes I struggle with unbelief. But every single time, when I have wrestled through the issue with God, I am rewarded with increased faith. That increased faith would be the reward (end) of that struggle (year.)

Whew, I hope you got all that! It makes perfect sense to me, but I'm not completely sure that any of the rest of you are going to get it. If you don't, that is OK, because I think I took enough out of those two little verses for the both of us. (And then some!)

A little sin...

Job 37:10

"By the breath of God ice is given, and the broad waters are frozen fast."

About four days ago, as I was sitting in my kitchen, quietly reading my Bible, before the whole house was awake, I noticed that my refrigerator was making a strange, tinny sounding noise. "Strange noise," I thought. Then I ignored it. This went on for about 3 days.

Then Friday, I took what should have been a frozen waffle out of the freezer. Problem was, the waffle was not frozen. It was kind of soft. "Hmm, maybe this is related to that strange noise I have been hearing." I decided to call in an appliance repairman immediately. He showed up at about 4:15 p.m. This is on Friday, remember.

He walked straight into my kitchen, pulled my fridge away from the wall, tinkered around for a pair of minutes (as Beth Moore would say), and pronounced that my compressor was broken and my refrigerator and freezer were worthless, and in fact had not been working properly since the first time I heard that strange noise. This was not a good moment for me.

There was, however, some good news. My fridge was still under warranty (being only 3 years old). The parts and labor would be completely covered under the standard warranty. Bad news? Oh yes. The broken part would need to be ordered, and would take 3-4 days to arrive, and they couldn't order it until Monday. It took me a while to realize what that would mean.

"Oh, that means I have no refrigerator or freezer all weekend? And probably until Thursday of next week? Umm, what am I supposed to do?"

This was apparently not the problem of the appliance guy. He was ready to go and enjoy the weekend.

At first, I thought things would be relatively fine. We have a mini-fridge in our wet bar. I emptied all of the bottles (I'll let you guess what those contained!) out of the mini-fridge and managed to salvage the milk, eggs, butter, lunch meat, cheese, juice, mayo, and cream (gotta have that for coffee). That was all that would fit. My husband brought home some bags of ice, and we stuffed them in the fridge and freezer and hoped that would keep things cool enough. I did do one smart thing, and took all of my chicken and put it in my deep freezer outside.


This morning I realized that the ice-stuffing had been pointless. There was a puddle of water in front of the fridge and condensation all over all of the things left in the fridge. So, facing reality, I got out the garbage bags, and to make a story that is already too long just a little bit shorter, I cleaned that baby out. Four trash bags worth.

Then, I took a good look at what the inside of my refrigerator and freezer looked like when emptied. It was horrible. I will spare you the details. Suffice it to say that I spent a majority of what was a beautiful day, up to my elbows in a sink full of bleach. I never realized how many parts could be taken out of a fridge to be cleaned. All of you women who do this on a regular basis, well, good for you. I don't.

As I was scrubbing mystery goo off the bottom of the freezer, I started thinking that I was going to find a way to turn this into a good spiritual illustration. I may have to stretch to make it work, but I was going to turn this into a good blog post. So, here is my best attempt....

Galatians 5:9

"A little leaven leavens the whole lump."

You know, if I had paid attention to that first tinny sound the fridge was making, I could have spared myself a whole heap of trouble. Chances are, the part would have arrived on Friday, and I would now be enjoying properly cooled food items. Sin is like that, too. We always get a warning sign when there is a problem. Even if it is just a little prick of the conscience. Sometimes it is much more than a little prick, it is more like alarm bells and red flags competing for attention.

At the point of first being aware of the sin, the smart thing to do is take care of the problem immediately. Before it "leavens the lump" and starts causing all kinds of scary things. Just take your pick of sins: romantic thoughts about that guy you dated before you got married, hateful feelings towards that neighbor who lets her dog bark at all hours, gossiping about that woman in church whose children are always out of control, not paying for your Bible Study book because it's done on an honor system, I could go on, but I hope you get the idea. They all start small, but left unchecked and unresolved, could lead you straight into disaster. And you should have at least a prick of conscience if you are doing any them.

But, say you see the problem and choose to ignore it. This is a bad idea. That strange noise my fridge was making should have been enough to make me call the appliance guy. But I chose to ignore it. Really, I did. It was a conscious choice. And by choosing to look the other way and let the noise go on, I ended up with stinky shrimp and slimy goo. The same thing can happen to our hearts and minds. Even our actions. And instead of handling a relatively small sin, with few, if any, consequences, we could be left having to break out the bleach bucket and do some serious work. I would rather deal with small problems, wouldn't you?

1 John 1:9

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

Acts 3:19-20

"Repent, therefore, and turn again,that your sins may be blotted out, that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord,"


(Now, go back and read the verse at the top of this post. And smile with me!)

One of my friends who read this post told me that she was a little unclear as to why I had to bleach my entire refrigerator. So, in case any of the rest of you have the same question, I thought I would elaborate. There are two reasons I had to bleach everything. First, my refrigerator had not been cooling, AT ALL, for the entire three days that it was making the noise. I guess there was enough cool air, and ambient chill to keep things from being obviously not refrigerated, but by the time I noticed the problem, defrosting, dripping and oozing had already been happening. Second, and probably more importantly, I had not given my fridge a thorough scrubbing in the entire three years I owned it. Now, you know all my dirty little secrets. I don't clean my fridge on a regular basis!

A Tight Rope

The Christian life calls for such a tightrope walk sometimes. Where exactly is the line between works and grace? Or, how do we strive toward heaven, without disregarding the here and now? Where are we supposed to draw the line between enjoying the blessings God has given us, and indulging in excessive luxury? Is it OK to spend time playing tennis, when I could be using that time to disciple a young believer? All of it calls for balance, right? Well, I think there are some things that leave no room for balance, but rather, are clearly meant to be all consuming.

I read these verses the other night.

Deuteronomy 6:4-9

"Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one! You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength.

And these words which I command you today shall be in your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, when you walk by the way, when you lie down, and when you rise up. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates."


I don't think that leaves much wiggle room. I don't see any indication that we are supposed to take a balanced approach to "these words." This section of scripture is found just after Moses has been recounting to the Israelites the commandments, statutes, and judgments of the LORD. I think it is safe to say that our modern equivalent of those things is the Bible.

Here is how I would break down these verses.

*Love the LORD your God emotionally, practically, actively, with all that you are, and with all of your mind, perspective, and thought life.

*Make these words a part of your heart, as in, part of your emotional understanding, part of what is inside you that drives and motivates you.

*Teach the scripture to your children!!!!

*Talk about the scripture in your home, with those closest to you, with those you love, as part of your everyday life. To me this means regularly, all the time, as a matter of habit. (when you sit in your house)

*Talk about and live according to scripture as you go about your daily business, your routines, your errands, your job! (when you walk by the way)

*Even in your recreation, and times of rest, seek after and love God! (this would be my take on "when you lie down")

*Make it part of the action of your hands: all your works, your accomplishments, your dealings, for me this would include housework, changing diapers, taking care of home and family.

*"frontlets between your eyes"-This one is convicting. Think about what you spend your time looking at, watching, absorbing. TV? Not much of it would be acceptable if we truly looked at it through a veil of scripture, would it? Another way of looking at this-do your frame your opinions (view things) based on what God says, or on what man says?

*God's word should be what we build our homes and home life upon. Our family life should revolve around it. We should be a home and family that proclaims the truth of God's Word in our daily living, our private family time, and our "gates"-the things the world sees when they observe us.

Listen, I am not perfect at this. But, I get the fact that my relationship to God is not subject to being balanced with other things in my life. It is not part of my life, it is my life. It is not part of what I believe, it is the basis of everything I believe. It is not a thing that I participate in, it drives and directs everything else that I do, every part of my life.

That makes me strange in today's culture. Even among many other Christians. The idol of a balanced life has unfortunately crept into our idea of religion.

God does not want us to be balanced. Not when it comes to Him: all your heart, soul, strength. Doesn't leave much else...

Rain, Rain

Psalm 147:7-8

"Sing to the LORD with thanksgiving;
Sing praises on the harp to our God,
Who covers the heavens with clouds,
Who prepares rain for the earth,
Who makes grass to grow on the mountains."

It is pouring here right now. I don't live near Atlanta, but I am in Georgia, and the whole state has been pretty dry. I just checked weather.com, and although it doesn't look like Atlanta is getting any rain, I am thankful for what we are getting in South Georgia.

When I heard the rain start pounding on the roof, I stopped what I was doing and said a prayer of gratitude. I heard a sermon about prayer once that reminded us to pray and thank God when He answers our prayers. For instance, how many times have you prayed and asked God for a safe road trip? When you got to your destination, did you say another prayer of thanks? I've been trying to put that into practice ever since.

Just like living through a literal drought makes me thankful for rain, it is often when I have experienced a spiritual drought that I newly appreciate the manifold blessing given to me by God. I am taken to a place where I must realize all over again, how deep and wide and amazing God's grace is. When I see myself as I am, and when I see God as He is, I am astounded. That He not only accepts me, but loves me and calls me His treasure is beyond my ability to understand.

That is why God's gift of faith is required for us to understand. Because, really, it makes no sense at all from our perspective.

The First Commandment

Matthew 22:36-40

"One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question:

"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?"

Jesus replied, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind." This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: "Love your neighbor as yourself." All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

I have been thinking about this verse since last night. I've been be-bopping around a lot of blogs lately, and let me tell you, there are some strange ideas about God and Christianity out there. This post is inspired by a comment I read on another blog. I'll just leave it at that.

Here's the thing: Jesus identified loving God as the FIRST and GREATEST commandment. That is God Himself pinpointing for us what our life ambition should be. It is the center that all the spokes in our lives should revolve around. Until you get this commandment, all the rest is irrelevant.

You can give away everything you own, you can give all your spare time in back breaking service to others, you can preach and study until you are mentally and physically exhausted, you can advocate social change and sign petitions, you can forward "Christian" emails, you can write letters to congressmen, you can drive a hybrid car, or better yet ride a bicycle, you can even praise and worship in church, but until you love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul and all your mind, you are accomplishing nothing.

Here is why. Only when your actions are a reflection of God's glory are they pleasing to God. Until then, you are acting out of self-righteousness and pride. That is blunt, but true. It may not look like self-righteousness and pride, but make no mistake, that is exactly what it is.

Notice that Jesus said to love God first, and then to love your neighbor second. We are incapable of loving our neighbor in any real way unless our love is a reflection of God's love. Until it comes from the overflow of loving God fully, there is an awful lot of YOU involved in your motives and actions. Not only that, but you will wear out and give up if you are trying to love your neighbor in your own power.

Most people are not all that lovable when you get down to the nitty gritty. I am including myself in that statement. We all have fallen short of the glory of God, we all disappoint each other, we all fail and make mistakes. None of us is perfect.

And if you make the mistake of thinking that you can learn to love God by serving your neighbor, you have it all backward. You must serve your neighbor, not in order to love God, but BECAUSE you love God. It's a big difference. One is self-motivated, the other is an outpouring of God's grace in a practical way.

And if you take away God's grace, you take away all the good news.